Show me where forever dies

today most of hte boys in my class are gone because of voleyball Zones today so most of the boys in my class are gone. so it just leaves one guy and all the girls. ahahahaha. but there is one other thing............i'm the only girl in my class. so its just me and anther guy in my entire class. ahaha. but thats only grade 10. we are combined with the grade 9s except in the first class which is going on right now and it is over half over. if that makes sense, lmao. but there are still not gonna be much. under 10 people today for sure which gladly means there is not enough kids to do work so i am just gonna screw around on random shit all day long. wanna know why???????? because today........I can!!!! woo hoo. btu i wonder who there is in the other class. probably like 4 kids. plus me and the guy which i practically grew up with but i have no idea what he is like or what he likes except hickey and metallica. but whatever. we are astill pretty good friends. ahahahaha. this should be a fun day.

anyways.......this class has been pretty fun. sat on a computer all day since i got to school. ahaha. next class........social studies then lunch then home ec then Life Skills. that is gonn suck cuz i wasnt therer one day when we were sposed to watch a video so i am doing that for that class. and the people i have to watch it and it is this weirs 80's video on Entrepreneurship in canada. FOR FUCK SAKES CANT THEY SEE I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! probably not but i'll just suck it up and watch the frickin' video. lmao. maybe today wasnt as much fun as i thought it was gonna be. ahaha. but i'll probably end up not watching the video because i'll just end up getting sidetracked like i usually do....like now. sposed to be workin on a project but ywah, not happening.  but whatevr. the bell is gonna ring soon and im listening to a song right now that is so good. it is a piano version of an acoustic song and it is completely amazing. it is the your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus and you have to love it to love the piano version and i think it is amazing and it makes me stop and listen. but as its playng im telling you guys. so im gonna listen again. well.............until next time. ;) xoxo

-Camille :)

today i have a volleyball game. Im gonna be sitting on a bus that is gonna be very bumpy and noisy. all i usually do is listen to music and look out the window and think about stuff. i barely ever talk on rides. but this morning thing i use to listen to music decided not to worl. the memory card went stupid and now the music wont play. i tried all morning until i had to go to school. it still dident work. so i brought the USB, and a load of mix CDs. i finished my worl early for once and got a free class so i went ot tthe computer lab and ripped a load of my mix CDs. that took foreve. then i synced it all onto the device. now i just hjope it word or else i will freak out and break it. (although its shannie's lol). i finished and have a few minutes left to write this journal and the bell just rang. perfect timing, wish me luck. xoxo

-camille :)

october 31st. or you might know it by Halloween. haha. i actually went out and got myself a big load of candy. and as a bonus i have to go to the dentist on November 3rd. like who does that?!?!!?!?!?!!?! lol. but i went out. no costume really. it was really cold out but i went with out a jacket. stupid move there but i survived and no problems came of it. first in a while. the nigth before that out school had a halloween dance. the theme was a masquerade. you had to wear a dress and that was a bit awkwad. i wasnt gonna dress up but in the end i did. i helped with it so i had to get there early to set up. i walked in and literally the first thing someone said to me was cough-slut-cough. luckily he was kidding because if he wasnt i would have kicked his ass. even in a dress. every other girl had a dres and it was lucky i dressed up cuz i would have been left out. haha. no one really sees me all dressed up usually so i actually got a lot of compliments. haha. i danced most of the time in heels and now i have blisters on my feet and they hurt so bad i had to take them off. so that was a pretty good weekend. did nothing today though. got a serious sugar crash and got a volleyball game tomorrow. fingers crossed. this bud ride better be worth it cuz i dont take the bus so im not used to the bumps. sometimes its fun but sometimes that just plain hurts. last time i was at the very back and it hurt so bad for the entire 45 minute drive. hahahahahahaha. last time we won the first game but lost the second one. :( but we are still getting better. haha. i cant wait. :) :) well............... see ya. xoxo

-camille :)

yay. i love volleyball. although it is late in teh season but we have out first game today. it is against our rival. haha. they are one of the best and i cant wait. although the bes ride will be forever. no one to look at through the window. haha. thats what i do. but we are travelling to another town and we have to go thorugh over half an hour of cold weather. well.....looking at it. kinda depressing althoug it can be really pretty if you thin about it enough. and since i dont have much to do, that is probabaly what i will end up doing. well. i really do hope i do good and then Zones are coming up. cant wait. just gotta make it through this school day and maybe it will all be okay. :P anyways.............wish me luck. xoxo

-Camille. :)

 

okay. my big sister, kayla took my camera. "just let me borrow it. I'll give it back in a while" well i let her borrow it now she's not even here. where is it??? i cant find it anywhere and she charged the battery in my room. so the battery is here but where is my camera? i actually wanted to use it today. so when she gets back from work i will unleash what i have to give her. (evil laugh) just kidding. but since i cant find it.......i am gonna write a journal cuz i WAS GONNA upload some pictures.. but nevermind now. wait til later. so anyways........its getting colder outside and all the snow is falling and it looks so pretty, although i almost freeze my ass off everytime i go outside. but the snow somehow melted and all we are stuck with is the wind and the cold. but i want it to snow after my sister shantelle's birthday. she will be 20 and i cant wait. it'll be so fun. :):) kayla will be there too in case ya'll wonderin' haha. so for now............peace out (yeah i know what you are thinking.....who says that anymore?)

xoxo- Camille :)

I am a person who just doesnt learn to do their work when they are told. I got to write an essay about canadian residential schools, an autobiography, a biography about a celebrity, a story about a person who has to make a decision, and I think something else. some is overdue and some is due n Friday. I know I should do it but I can't get myself to do it. maybe i should work on it tonight, or maybe right now. NAH!!! jk. i'll get some done this class and perhaps be a good student and get it done on time. but i always make suire I hand it in while I can stil get marks for it. Now to the "not making sense" part. I am writing a blog expressing the fact that I dont do my work but I cant bring myself to do my fricking work. it has been like this ever since i started grade 9. lmao. now all the high school teachers hate me, which is just overly funny. such high hopes for me too. looks like all I do is disappoint everybody....

I just got in trouble like 2 minutes ago. I listen to music in the computer lab at school and you need headphones unless you get kicked out. Well i thought mine were plugged in properly but i guess it wasnt then i started blasting music. i knew something was weird when people started looking but i was like whatever. halfway through the song a teacher walks in and i cant hear anything though and starts yellig and i was thinking, "what the hell is her problem???" then i take out the headphones adn people are telling me to turn downt he music. I was like 'oh, fuck." as it turns out she was yelling at me and i had no clue what the hell was going on. i wonder if she knew i wasnt listening, i wonder if she would feel stupid or something.

it was like earlier when i was called over the intercom and i wasnt listening. my friend Jennifer was trying to talk to me but i just wasnt listening because that was what she was doing all class. By now, i was like whatever. lol. then she kept trying to talk to me so I said really loud, "WHAT?!?!?!" and that made everyone in the lab look at me like i was retarded. with I Will Not Bow by Breaking Benjamin blasting in my ears, someone explained to me that i was to go to the office and do something. i had no idea what was going on all class  and that is what is happening now. Sound of Madness by shinedown. blasting. cant hear anything but that song. waiting for the end of school today. So in the meantime...

Yeah, I get it,
You're an outcast
Always under attack
Always coming in last,
Bringing up the past.
No one owes you anything
I think you need a shotgun blast,
A kick in the ass
So paranoid
Watch your back!!

Oh my, here we go...

Another lose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower
Quicksand's got no sense of humor
I'm still laughing like hell
You think that the cryin to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe
You've been infected by a social disease
Well, then take your medicine

I created the Sound of Madness
Wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality,
If there's an afterlife,
Then it'll set you free
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfilling prophecy
You think that cryin to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease
Well, then take your medicine

I created the Sound of Madness
Wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

I created the Sound of Madness
Wrote the book on pain
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night
You can sleep with a gun
When you gonna wake up...
When you gonna wake up and fight...

I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

Another day. this is just a bit more worse. and as much this journal  won't help. There is no one to say this to at the moment. When you are in a school computer lab and yor sister stole your headphones and you are stuck with her headphones which dont work at all on this damn computer which means you dont have any music to listen to all class...................you will go freaking insane. I listen to music most of the class and pretty much phase myself out from the outside world. At least it is ony my grade in here. Grade 10 witj a total of 11 students, where I am the only girl. rural canadian schools can be pretty small. You can hear them talking. now i seriuosly need music right now. Hear the beat. Drown out the voices. Think about nothing but that song playing at the moment and dream. And do all that sitting in the lab because I am tired right now and that is what wakes me up. I didnt think it would be cold, so I grab a thin grey sweater to put over my tank top. Walk outside and feel the wind. now that sucks. probably gotta walk home later too. One of those days where nothing goes right when nothing went right in the first place. I have another situation. all girls know and maybe some guys who get it knw what I am talking about. Yes, guy problems. Lets not go into that. Well, it's just another day. And its only the morning. Things could change..........i hope.

On friday, I went to the Red River Exhibition(the Ex). Never been there before so I was really excited. I am so scared of heights but I figured Ihad to get over it somehow. The Ex was a great thing to help. haha.

The first ride we( Kayt, Shantelle, Kayla, Mallory, and I) decided to go on was the Mega Drop. It was so high and I was so excited. then we got on. when i got strapped in, I started to think, " what Am I doing????" but it was too late. It went so high up you could see everything. you could see all the tall buildings. It stayed up there for such a long time, then it moved just a bit, scaring everybody. Then it dropped so fast you didn't even have time to scream. When I was done, I was so happy and I thought that was so cool!!

A few other rides we went on was Niagra Falls, a ride with a wole lot of water and its like a small roller coaster. We went on it..... twice. And The Cliffhanger was awesome. Its like a Cliffhanger. duh. lol. and sime other rides that werent as scary. Then we waited in line for about half and hour to forty five minutes for a ride called the Fireball. It went so fast in circles it was so awesome adn people would not stop screaming. It was hilarious because people told me not to sit at the end. I took my camera on some rides. I went in the Rainbow, the Fireball, The ferris Wheel, The Crazy Mouse, and The Pharoah`s Something(can`t remember).One of the things that freak me out the most would be the Ferris Whee. The way you go so slow and everythin just freaks me out. After the first round, I stopped caring though.

In line at the crazy mouse, I started talking to 2 girls in front of me. Pne had to go up ahead and do something and the other was left in line. She ended up was in front of everyone and we decided that we should go to her and we would cut a lot of people in line. We were almost to her when some people wouldn`t let us pass and told us to go to the back of the line. i felt so bad because it was my idea, so we let a few people pass us quietly and then we got in line, still cutiing a lot of people. That was so close. When we finally got to the front, We looked back to where we were supposed to be adn it was so far away. Lucky us. We went on te Crazy Mouse and it was so awesome. We were screaming and we got our picture taken on it. We looked so funny. It went so fast and looked like we were going to fall off!!! but it was good.

The Ex closed at midnight and it was 11:30 p.m., so we went on one more, The Slingshot. It was the highest ride there. It was a small thing that 2 people go in and you fly up way high. It cost an extra $30 per person so Shantelle and Kayt were gonna go on. i was disappointed i couldnt go on, but i didnt have any money, but later, shantelle didn`t want to go on, so i took her place with Kayt. We waited and saw some people get off. Some were shaking so much. It got me a little scared, but i was too excited to care anymore. When it was our turn, they strapped us in so much and i hung on so tightly. Kayt was shaking already and then we waited and looked up at the sky. It was dark out and all the lights were on. When you went on, all you could see was a ball of lights flying in the air. We waitd adn it tilted upward. It stayed there and the guy operating the ride said to us, "Are you ready to get high?" and then it just shot straight up. Kayt was screaming and I just looked. We went a total of 65 feet i the air in a matter of 1.8 seconds. It was the best ride of my life. We just went up and down for a little while and then we went down. I was laughing. It was so awesome!!!!

Then we all went home. We dropped everyone off and got home at 2:00 a.m. The I just carshed and went to sleep. haha. It was the best day ever!!! for now.

P.S.- I'll get the videos posted soon. I forgot my USB cord and can't upload it. Sry but ill get it on here ASAP!! haha

Saturday- June 6, 2009

Woke up at 8:45. got ready and left the house at 9:30. got picked up by my big sister Shantelle(shanZie) and her boyfriend Benj.

Went to a restaurant for breakfast. Pretty good. Ran into a teacher there. I hated her. but i figured i would just be nice. But she tried to talk to me.ugh. lolz. :) finished and left restaurant.

went and picked up our friend, Becky. Then left to got he city(Winnipeg). On the ride there, shantelle did not know where she was going so she drove full speed and looked at a map. scary yet funny. better than Benj driving. lol jk. :) when we got to winnipeg, Shantelle was going the right way, and then there was some kind of thing going on, so she had to go around it and amost got us lost. then me and becky analyzed people on the street for a while. there were such weirdly dressed people. Then going around a corner, ShanZie cut someone off. that person was so mad, they gave us the fnger.......twice. me and Becky only sawe it. We were laughing so hard. On the way, we kept passing a lot of seven eleven's. They were about a strawberry wiht limeade slurpee. and the slogan was "strawberry with attitude" i though tit was so funny, i was crying. and then we parked the car and got out. we ran into ShanZIe's friend named Kayla Willis. She was trying to find the place for forever. then we went around the corner and waited for someone to open the doors.

Someone finally opened the doors and we went inside. Someone explained what to do and then we got read and then went to find a seat and sit down. We all sat down and waited. We saw a person perfor a song. She did a good job and then it was ShanZie's turn. She sang a song she write called Take That. She rocked it. We saw a few other people perform. there was a girl who played the guitar and sang a song. she was good, but the song was the most annoying thing ever. And she had to sing it twice due to "technical difficulties". There was only one guy performing so far. he did an awesome job and he got to sing it twice! lolz. the we saw a few moer people and then we left the place. P.S.- the auditions were for a chance to win money at the Red River Ex.

We all left and i tried to help Benj woht his seat belt and he comletely crushed my fingers with the belt. it hurt. then we went to Tim Horton's. the line was okay, but there was a woman there who was looking at me really weird, she kept looking and smiling. he kept moving her eyebrows up and downat meand she was wearing sunglasses too, so u couldnt see her eyes. and she held her coffe cup as if she was paramoid that someone would steal it.  she as dressed in erally baggy clothes and her hair was scraggly too. weird. then i got my iced cappucino and left. whew!

We went home and on the way ShanZie was driving at a fairly fast pace and then a rug was on the road. She went to a complete stop adn i thoug it was hilarious. then we went to pick up my sister kayla anderson from work. we waited half adn hour but it seemed like forever. she was eventually done, so we went home,

ShanZie had a show later that day and me and kayla wanted to go. We quicly cleaned up the entire house. so we ran amok cleaning up everything. The we packed up the equipment, and left. Benj was driving, so that was awesome, he drove so fast, it was awesome!! a little scary, but so awesome.

When we got there, we unpacked all the equipment and then went inside.Mme and kayla went to the restaurant and went on the laptops for the entire show. We could hear her performing, ad she sounded so awesome!!! She did such an awesome job and my dad sounded good and so did ShanZie's friend, Ery. They all did a lot of singing, and drinking.

Later at about 12:30, the show was over, so we all went home. The i was so tired from the day, i went to sleep. lolz. it was a good day. :D

um......... I think i just made a new record. I am the only person to hate school the most!! haha. gotcha guys there. lolz. there are people makong sound effects behind me and all I have to do now is wait for exams. and now the people start to play weird techno music. its kinda funny, but if they play it enough, there is gonna be an "accident". jk. but i just feel like putting down my feelings right now on a public blog. lolz. my feelings rightnow........ annoyed!!!! but ill feel better later. at least the weekend is coming up and the Red River Ex. lolz. it is gonna be so fun. if anyone is from winnnipeg...... are ya coming to the Ex????

I want to know how everyone gets up so early to go to school. I am so tired right now!!!!!!! i had to get up at 7:30 to get up. I don't even take that long to get ready!!! But I have t getup that early anyways. Anyone who gets up earlier than this that doesn't take teh bus to school tell me so taht I will feel better, I was kidding by the way. But I still don't think I should have to get up so early anyways. I can barely keep my eyes open so this is taking me forever to type this without maling mistakes because I backspace a lot to nake it look like I am good at typing when it turns out I am not!!!!!

Chec out my video, Stalker, she wrote. this is an awesome vid!!!! We made this for a project! I had so much fun doing this. Stalker , she wrote is a preview for a commercial. This is not a real movie. Hate to disappoint you though. This is really funnt. I like the way the guy is haging on to the fence int he back. I laughed so hard when I saw the finished part. It will always be funy from my point if view. Best way to pass class time!!!!!

Hey!!  Welcome to my life  now. No going back, only if you press the exit button!!!

Well, I am actually really bored. I do this during my classes. I think this is a good way to pass class time. The teachers don't even watch me!! Some learn though!!!

Bell rang get back to you later!!!! I'll write a longer one later